Why can't my dad stop letting my family down?
He had an affair. With this woman he took me and my little brother to meet, this woman I liked, this woman I trusted. My mom forgives him she always fucking forgives him. She's such a good, smart person. He pulls her around and won't let her do what she wants. She went to school for 6 years and now he wants to force her into a difference feild of study. She has dreams again and he's crushng them all systematically. The more I think about the more tricked and used I feel. He is the worst person I have ever heard of. I hate everything about him. There isn;t even anyone for me to talk to this about, mom has adult friends she can confide in. I have Jason but he doesn't know what this is like, how it feels to know your family is a lie. I feel like I have all this anger in me, all this horrible saddness, all this betrayl.
This is why the world is such a fucked up place. This is why people kill other people and get all fucked up. Because no one can just be honest and real. No one can love someone enough to just take care of them, they have to fuck everyone they can. Fuck him...fuck everything he ever said to me. Now i'll just use him to pay for my college and finance my trips to virginia. God knows...it's what he does to my mom.
Oh, and I'm getting tested for skin cancer, JOY